Dear someone-who-might-not-even-read-this,

yu know how some times i think i get really tired. from having to ask time and again and being met by replies like "i dunno see how first" and "maybe work" or somethings else. but still the ball is thrown back into my court and i have to rinse and repeat.

well, guess what. i'm too tired to carry on.

maybe because i'm typing this when i'm physically tired(i just had my ippt today, and tomorrow's another early day), but there's no hiding that somewhere inside a part of me is really tired and dying. or dead.

what to do? haha. i guess life goes on. and this is just some plain rant that will soon be forgotten in a few days time.

i'm pretty much contented staying home and watching rave for the time being.

oh, and don't get me wrong, i still think yu're great. it's just that it's come to a point where i think i need some re-thinking, or some new motivation on how to move on from here. because i don't really know anymore.

i'm not sorry, there's nothing to say.
:-:haha. i can only think of one person who will probably understand. and i guess he's in a somewhat similar predicament. haha. if yu know who yu are, don't bother tagging. yu know we both need a drink together sometime.

so. ippt today. not so bad after all. just a little disappointed. sometimes, i think i can't run fast enough to save my life. haha. but silver it is, and a +$100. just take loh. gold seems so far away..

i'm so tired i don't even feel like moving from my seat. just needed some verbal diarrhoea, then it's back to watching rave. haha. thanks sam for introing this awesome series. it's boring when there's no one on msn to talk to..

i need more rest..
:-:tag replies:
sam: hahaha. our thoughts are all disjointed after some shintoism thanks.
liyi: yeah. the ping pong song. sounds ridiculous(the song title) but the song is awesome.
peee: haha. tanglinians la. yu know, students from tanglin? haha. and yu want to know secret? see how loh. LOL.
cheng: crazy woman = yu la. where got people got such a funny face one -> "=s" LAWL.

Long long time ago..

SAMANTHA LOW! yeah i remember i did it before. but i haven't been updating. so i think i'll just do it all over again. FOR YU OKAYYYY.
:-:
LAYER 1 : ON THE OUTSIDE
Name : Goh Jin Yang Jason
Birth Date : 25th Oct 1986
Current Status : Single
Eye Colour : black (i think. i lazy to go look into the mirror.
Hair Colour : black
Right of lefty : righty (eh sam, ask yu whether right handed or left handed la!)

LAYER 2 : ON THE INSIDE
My Heritage : ehh. i think is hokkien. i don't really remember.
My Fears : i think the most recent is the frailty of life. omg. read newspaper, people so fit run 21km also can collapse. tsk.
My Weaknesses : i'm always lateeeee. thanks. and i'm some irresponsible. tsk.
My Perfect Pizza : yum. pizza. meat, and more meat. no crust thanks.

LAYER 3 : YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
My thoughts first waking up : i dunno leh. recently very rush. wake up will check time to see if i'm late.
My bedtime : super early if i stay in, cos it's so boring. but usually by 1am i'd be gone.
My most missed memory : too many. haha. i think last time i got type alot..

LAYER 4 : MY PICK
Pepsi or Coke : coke ftw!
McDonald's or Burger King : uhh. kfc? lol!
Single or grouped dates : does it matter? haha. okay maybe kinda. but depends on situation what.
Adidas or Nike : adidas, or puma.
Tea or Nestea : tea. teh si peng thanks.
Chocolate or Vanilla : chocolate la! what else.
Cappuccino or Coffee : uhh. kopi si gao. is coffee? actually i don't really care.
Boys or Girls: both. LOL.

LAYER 5 : DO YOU...
Smoke : no
Curse : too much.
Take a shower : uhh. DUH.
Have a crush : like now? does it matter?
Think you've been in love : i guess.
Go to school : eh. i want to go to school. it's always like that. when yu're in it, yu wanna get outta it. when yu're outta it, yu wanna go back in. tsk.
Want to get married : yeah, of course.
Believe in yourself : sometimes?
Think your a health freak : definitely.. not.

LAYER 6 : IN THE PAST
Drank alcohol : too much in the past. now cut down by 1001 times.
Gone to the mall : yu think i come from mountains?
Been on stage : yeah. i was in drama club in primary school okay. LOL.
Eaten sushi : yumm. makes me hungry.
Dyed your hair : too many colours. can't remember. some quite ugly..

LAYER 7 : HAVE YOU EVER...
Played a stripping game : no.
Changed who you were to fit in : i guess whoever said no would be lying. what happened to all the jncos and stuff. LOL. i'm pretty sure i wore those to 'fit in'. but i thought it was pretty cool. HAHA.

LAYER 8 : AGE YOU'RE HOPING...
To be married : dunno leh. when i'm financially stable loh.

LAYER 9 : In A GuY...
Best eye colour : no preference as long as it looks pretty
Best hair colour : no preference as long as it looks pretty
Short hair or long hair : no preference as long as it looks pretty (but i like pretty hair, and hairbands.)

LAYER 10 : WHAT WERE YOU DOING...
A minute ago : typing this thing la.
Hour ago : uhh. possibly reading Fairy Tail on onemanga.
4.5 hours ago : yu know i actually spent 2 minutes calculating what time 4.5 hours ago was. LOL. anyway. i was probably having dinner. mmm.
1 month ago : i actually went to check my blog history, but there wasn't any entry. closest i found was that i just went to ssdc to sign up for my driving. STILL NO PROGRESS. i'm sad.
Year ago : nearest i got was 27 august 2006. stayed over at jared's for some drinks and ps2. fun stuff. that was the first time jared, zw and me demolish 20 over slices of pancakes over breakfast too. record?

LAYER 11 : FINISH THE SENTENCES...
I love : food. and more food. and this, and that. yummm.
I feel : bored, kinda. but kinda happy cos tomorrow got offffff.
I hate : right now? i hate the slow crawling speed at which my rave is moving. faster, thanks.
I hide : but i'm so big, people always seem to find me. LOL.
I miss : so many things.
I need : to go for a holiday far far away, just cos i want to!

LAYER 12 : Tag 5 ppl!!
One: him.
Two: her.
Three: them.
Four: that one.
Five: they all.
:-:
haha. and yeah. one of those tanglinians was yu la. how to forget study amaths at angmokio until i gave up. hahaha. i still remember got one time dunno go where buy flowers for some band performance i think. and PLEASE don't remind me of anything that's naval baseee! LOL.

sigh. those were the days, those were the days..

update tmr. sure alot of time. tmr off leh.

Do you know

enrique iglesias. i like this song!

do yu know what it feels like
loving someone who's in a rush to throw yu away
do yu know what i feels like
to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed.

-:-
so last night's soccer at vincent's place was okayyy. got too tired and slept on the couch halfway through the matches. snoRE. red wine makes me sleepy.

breakfast(some egg and toast) are always welcome. imo it's better than yakun. random kopitiam stuff is gooood.

i wanna go out i wanna go out..! youtube is my best friend when there's no where to go. haha.
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Weekend weekend!

tag replies:

sam: yeahhh. some skinny. but not as skinny as before! heh heh.
cheng: some hi, crazy woman. nong time no see.
dawn: might as well say take cable car go sentosa rightttttt. ahaha.

:-:

finally, the participation of command parade at chongpang camp is overrrr. one whole week on a half an hour ceremony. snoRE.

weekend weekend! no plans tho. i think i wanna watch soccer in the evening. vincenttttttt LOL.

i think two nights ago, someone told me a 不能说的秘密. hahaha.

my writing has gone from bad to worse. disjointed thoughts, thanks.

sian sian sian.

Live thru this, and you won't look back..

there's one thing i want to say, so i'll be brave.
you were what i wanted.
i gave what i gave.
i'm not sorry i met you.
i'm not sorry it's over.
i'm not sorry there's nothing to say.

i'm not sorry there's nothing to say.

-:-
except for the kinda creepy beginning. the rest rocks.

i want to go overseas overseas overseas!

The light at the end of the tunnel.

it's been some suay times..

comp crashed, man u losing and drawing, basically wrong things happening at the wrong times. murphy's law, thanks.

but now i see the light! haha. thanks to aunty for talking with me some. and thanks to me digging out my recovery cd. everything in my laptop is gone, but at least i have a working machine now. and thanks to fookie! for keeping my backup of random drivers for almost 2-3 years now. i think i can go online from home tomorrow. seems like a long time, but it's only 3 days without my computer. haha.

today while playing soccer, the ball got kicked into a drain. it's no ordinary drain. it's like a freaking tunnel, with only enough space for one very skinny person(that's me) to wriggle in. and once yu get in, yu have only one way out: through the entire tunnel. it's about 100(or 80)m long. and once yu get in, yu can't see shyt inside. but someone had to get the ball, and it was me.

so i squirmed thru the entire thing, and emerged victorious with the ball, and grazes on my elbows, thighs and knees. i feel accomplished.

i think i go sleep now. good night.

Dead...

my computer died. thanks. so don't expect to see me on.. maybe till december? haha..

snoRE. now at jared's place. after two gosu dota games.

)= saddddddddd.

omg! rui en and pierre png are like a damn cute couple in the 9pm chan8 show!

actually i think rui en is the cute one. ahahaha. her smile is damn infectious!

I'm home..!

it was an 'unofficial' celebration to the end of our guard of honour journey last night.

dinner first at miramar hotel. and i was half expecting it to be at the chinese restaurant at the third level. but it's not! so disappointing. not only because it's not what i expected to be, the buffet spread is NOT IMPRESSIVE at all. sian.

headed down to zouk after the dinner. thanks to jialin for the cheaper tickets, which she had to endure some nagging from the zouk management. really thanks loads! and stop biting your nails, thanks.

headed straight in to finish up the two free drinks because it's gonna be uber packed as the hours stretched. then went out to the kopitiam opposite to drink some cos they were still packing up from the nus th bash thingy i guess. back in at around midnight, some two jugs of long island tea and we hit the floor! mambo was alright, but phuture was like SARDINE, thanks.

and zouking was super tiring. i think i'm old. or i just can't stand the super crowd. it was really SUPER. i had to leave twice because frankly i was getting asphyxiated(and the music wasn't that good for a while, lol.) after that i went back and couldn't find ANYONE. which means more 'crowd blending' to look for people. >.<

didn't get to see jialin the entire night, cos the silly girl's handphone is deaddd. but i bumped into peimei twice, and she literally jumped and screamed at me. 4seconds stun thanks. haha. quite glad to see her after some long time.

so, i'm pretty convinced that i'm old because yixian, ooi, weiliang, quanen ALL managed to stay inside boogeying the entire time! i guess one year makes alot of difference. mannnnn.

okay enough about partying. back to book in later, my half day off is running out. )=
-:-
think too much, think too much.
yu know how people always say learn from mistakes, but i seem to doing the same mistakes all over again. and again and again. hi, wake up thanks.
effort is overrated. i think i'm wrong. effort is effort. but i guess effort spent on people who doesn't seem to appreciate it is like .. what's the point?
i'm pretty much tired.. again.

仙履奇緣

如果上天能再给我一个再来一次的机会, 我会对那个女孩子说三个字：我爱你。如果非要为这份爱加上一个期限，我希望是一万年。

omg. damn touching. i like.

and i can't believe i finished watching both parts. and it's already 130am. how to book in tomorrow..

like moths to a fire.. even tho they know that they'll die..

More pictures.

welcome guard to welcome some filipino general. the helmet makes everyone look like a turtle. had to borrow the helmet because i'm not an RP and i will never be one. thankfully it fit.


taken from some guy's flickr account. apparently he was around snapping pictures. i'm somewhere at the back.. can't see me, can only see my rank.

:-:

headed down to ikea. yummy meatballs and hotdogs. i saw a very nice wall shelving that i must must must mount on the wall of my room. question is.. where.

and i saw this super nice wardrobe that's like all slide doors and tempered glass and chic and neat. but the price tag is like super nice too. I WANT.

headed straight home after and i'm pretty tired. after last night's bbq at dawn's place with lornie vincent steph andre and estella! nong time no see everybody.

book in tomorrow. i'm so NOT looking forward. oh well.

stuffs to do next week!

tuesday: basic theory test! go go go! vroom vroom.
wednesday: dinner at miramar's to celebrate end of GOH journey. maybe zouk later. but i've pretty much outgrown all the clubbing and stuffs. not that i was really into it at any point of time.. so it's probably home to sleeeep.
friday/saturday: maybe dinner with jialin. maybe ktv with ben and gang. maybe sleep at home. haha.

NEXT WEEKEND PLEASE FASTERRRRRRRR THANKS.

:-:

LOL. my friendster account got hacked. and i'm laughing so hard!

just so that everyone can see it, it's here.

i didn't know i was so hated. )=

the account has since been reverted to back to what it was. it was hacked for only about 14 hours before i found out. and whichever dumb fuck did it even posted a shoutout that says something like "i love monster cocks" or stuff like that. -shakes head- not children friendly, thanks. hahaha.

You Deserve a Jason Today.

Slogan Generator

i can't believe i spent ten minutes just clicking on "Sloganize".

and there's the Movie Quotes Generator too.

:-:
yu know, i really have nothing with singapore being a multiracial society. and i definitely feel that it's a once in a lifetime experience to fully enjoy your wedding. but getting blasted by malay music after just three hours of sleep makes yu cranky, and i feel like just throwing my dining table out of the window at them.

Welcome to Singapore.

i like duets.

這星球,天天有五十億人,在錯過. 多幸運, 有你一起看星星,在爭寵.

NDP IS FINALLY OVERRRRR.

and i ran thru the video that they screened on tv. everytime the camera pans near my area, they switch views! oh well.

pictures will be up soon, i guess.

OFF DAY = HAPPY DAY!

what to do what to do.

tag replies:

dawn: yeah yeah. bbq. after i finish marching past president first. haha.

:-:

i am totally excited about moving. i'm thinking of stuffs to put into the new place all the time. lollerstuffs.

and thank god(or buddha or allah) that calvin survived some gay operation with nothing but a pirate's eyepatch and four scars to the top of his head. good stuff.

i'm tired. ndp tmr. watch out for me!

WEEKEND WEEKEND WEEKEND.

tag replies:

liyi: i replied your tag on my tag. scroll down thanks.
agnes: then go take la. so near your school. walking distance.

:-:

IT'S FRIDAY. FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY.

i hope today ends like, FAST. then it'll be SATURDAY SATURDAY SATURDAY.

last ndp show before the real thing. the journey is endingggg. )=

Good start to the month.

tag replies:

peeeeee: want to know, ask me loh! haha.
dawn: yeah man. i think even got specific place to play at. hahaha.
agnes: i now taking at ssdc, near yiochukang there. go register la.

:-:

okay. today was a pretty good start to the month.

didn't really start off too well. because i was supposed to be OFF, but was then asked to get myself back to work. snoRE.

but it was quite okay. headed back and did some work. had some breakfast, then did more work. lunch was laksa at the cookhouse, which was pretty okay, but only by cookhouse standard. if yu get what i mean..

pretty relaxing day if yu ask me. but i still got work done. mmmm.

then decided to go for a run at around 4plus. i think my heart almost stopped beating after i finished running 5km. weakkkkkkkkkkkkk.


of course, that's not all. gained some wealth, cleared some misunderstandings. and altho i'm all shagged out at the end of the day(like now), i think i'm still pretty satisfied how the past 24hours have gone.

hopefully it'll be like this allllllllllll the way. heh heh.