没有病了
go golden mile check bus fare/hotel. off to KL!
this is what happens when yu read this space too much.
I hop into a plane. It's a one-man-drive. Sorta like a go-kart. There is only the accelerator and the brake to step on, and open air. It resembles the kind of kiddy rides you get - ten minutes for two dollars. Except, this glides through the air. The steering is oddly familar, although it jerks up and down to decrease or increase altitude. Boy, am I ready for one of the rides of my life.
It seems like I've been riding one of these for years. Others have already taken off before me. It looks to me that the war is won, or lost, here. "Eradicate all enemy airborne vehicles", we were told. Cut off the supply and the victory is ours for the taking.
I get into a dogfight with a few enemy fighter planes. Gliding through the air, I render them defenceless against my superior maneuverability and accurate aim. Emerging victorious, I feel nonchalent; The biggest scalp to be claimed has not even appeared yet.
Then, there it was: the carrier plane. It would be pointless to fire away at its near invincible armour. I had to get closer. The cockpit, that should be my target. Rid the mastermind, the threat is nullified. I dive low to align myself with its altitude.
The 'cockpit' of the enemy carrier plane was located by the side, more like where the driver is located in our local SBS buses. I speed up when approaching; I have escaped detection till then, due to my insignificance in size compared to that huge-ass aerial vehicle.
Once near, I retrieved a pistol from under my seat(don't ask me why the hell I know it's there. I just know.) and fired a few shots through the darkened window. The enemy plane began to dip, my job was almost done. To be safer, I dived lower and loaded a few more shots into the cockpit. Little did I know that I had dived too low..
The carrier plane crashed before me, into the plains below. Mission accomplished, or so I thought. I still had to save myself. Ramming the steering downwards, I restored some parity. Just when I was about to lift off into the skies again, an arm shot out and grabbed onto mine. My jet quivered. I looked down to see a beautiful girl, hanging onto my arm for her life.
She was an enemy, no doubt. Most probably ejected from the carrier plane that I had just downed. But still, a life is a life. I felt responsible to save her.(Her good looks were no help.) Pulling her up with one arm, I steadied my hold on the steering with the other. She had the look of gratitude in her eyes, however..
Little did I know that the first thing she did was flick the switch. She sure is familiar, immedietely turning the engine off. I was dumbstruck, and stared at her in disbelief. In the blink of the eye, her gratitude for me has been repaid with betrayal. I crash-landed, and became unconscious..
When I awoke, I was beside her, alone. The only bad thing about this is that we're both on a slow-moving vehicle. Focusing my sight, I realised we were in some sort of armour vehicle, most probably a truck. Then it struck me; I am now a prisoner-of-war. I looked at her, her sight refusing to meet mine. She stared indignantly onto the ground, as if she had done something against her conscience. Her pretty face was solemn.
I was enraged. Grabbing her by the collar, I scream: "WHY? I SAVED YOU."
Her gaze now transfixed onto mine, she never said a thing. Her eyes spoke the countless words that she had to explain to me. Her remorse, her guilt, her choice between conscience or loyalty. I think I realise, and release my grip on her.
I crumple onto the ground..
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mem·oir Pronunciation Key (mmwär, -wôr)
n.
1. An account of the personal experiences of an author.
2. An autobiography. Often used in the plural.
3. A biography or biographical sketch.
4. A report, especially on a scientific or scholarly topic.
If you take someone's thoughts and feelings away, bit by bit, consistently, then they have nothing left, except some gritty, gnawing, shitty little instinct, down there, somewhere, worming round the gut, but so far down, so hidden, it's impossible to find. Imagine if you will, a worldwide conspiracy to deny the existence of the colour yellow. And whenever you saw yellow, they told you, no, that isn't yellow, what the fuck's yellow? Eventually, when you saw yellow, you would say: that isn't yellow, course it isn't, blue or green or purple, or. . . . You'd say it, yes it is, it's yellow, and become increasingly hysterical, and then go quite berserk.
... Because right now I feel a bit like a tree cut from the ground on the way to the lumberyard for further cutting. And the thing about my mom is that she's totally nuts, but she's very normal. She pays taxes, she works for a living, she boils water without burning the pot. She's so far from my present surrounding that I think calling her will somehow transport me to a saner place. We used to talk every day almost, but we haven't lately because there's too much I don't want to tell her and too much she doesn't want to know. Our silence is a cooperative venture, although we still chat about nothing every few days.
bour·bon Pronunciation Key (bûrbn)
n.
A whiskey distilled from a fermented mash containing not less than 51 percent corn in addition to malt and rye.
whis·key also whis·ky Pronunciation Key (hwsk, ws-)
n. pl. whis·keys, also whis·kies
An alcoholic liquor distilled from grain, such as corn, rye, or barley, and containing approximately 40 to 50 percent ethyl alcohol by volume.