work work..

today was... err.. happening? haha.
firstly berilyn wants to sell me an E-700 for 330 bucks. omg. gonna get it. i think. heh.
then... work was kinda slack for the first hour or so. after that was hell. gah. but was damn kewl. heh. been long since i last worked. i think. a month or so? haha..
did lotsa rubbish. and they were screening soccer. man u drew with blackburn or something. can't remember. but the score was 0-0. hah.
today seemed like multi-national day. there were singapoeans, japanese, french, americans, hongkies, and some other i can't really remember. practically diff table occupied by diff nationality.
knocked off. stuck around to help with closing. the retarded POS machine went kuku and was delayed till like midnight. meanwhile i got myself some wine, gin, and some other rubbish i can't remember. waha. closing is funnnn.
ran to the mrt just in time to catch the last mrt. by the time i was in the mrt.. fucking shag.. almost missed my stop eh.

ahhhh. what a day.

in totally unrelated news, food for thought session: who do YOU belong to?

ahhh.

i feel so used. thrown around like a ragged doll without any purpose of existence.
har. shan't elaborate.
usual boring monday. some thanks for the good start of the day.
very good.
goooooood.
...

bored..

i'm bored... so here's some food for thought.
what does it mean to like, and what's the similarity between that word and love? i've came across many people saying, "i like you, but only as a friend." what's the difference between liking the person as a friend, and not as a friend. as in.. its such a vague word. its just like... how are you able to tell someone that you love him/her, and be able to mean it, when you don't know what it means?
i could go on forever, but i guess its better thinking off on your own, if you're as bored as me. i sound like a messed up kid. am i? lol.
haha. i think i just grew up a lil. learn as you grow, they say..

in totally unrelated news, taking the mrt from admiralty to toapayoh, and then coming back to admiralty without getting out of the gates at toapayoh will cost you SIXTY FOUR CENTS. and an hour of your life.

sunday...

its sunday. again. just like the other boring sundays..
anyway. weekend was fun. right? =p

UNLEASH THE FURY !

ghahaha. watching roadtrip at peee's house was damn funny. thanks cw. heh. and who can ever forget the 'tiny salmon swimming in the stream...' lol.
drank alot. as usual. staying over at peee's always drink. without fail. we had red/white wine. courtesy of adam. and two bottles of random rubbish. liyi was delightfully tipsy. and amanda was a goner! wahaha.

school's gonna start on monday.. kinda NOT looking forward to it ya know? and yeah.. back to work.
MONEYLESS IS SOME SAD STUFF. THANKS.

in totally unrelated news... DAN AND CAL ARE BLOGGING OMG. wahaha. i mean. if fookie can do it, why not the rest of #s0ul? not as exciting as the discovery of fookie blogging, but yeah. its still pretty amazing. =D w00t. list of fellow friends' blogs growing.

hot..

we burn the gallows they erect..
and cut the nooses they tie for our necks.

yeah. burn. fucking hot nowadays.
soccer was a killer.
die you gay weather.

overrrrr.

common tests are overrr..
they seem like they were never here in the first place anyway.
db paper was tough, but at least there ain't any empty spaces anywhere.
went to watch 13 going on 1430.
oh god. what a retarded show. just like twins effect ii and avp.
mj's friend ju said my hair looks spotty.
i'm sad.
but her hair ain't that pretty either.
wahahaha!
three cheers for sweet revenge.
then spent the entire evening/night with cw.
some boring shyt.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i won't forget the day that, that i came to.
and i started thinking, that there's more.
than just perfect prom queens and silver spoons.
and all i ever wanted.
was someone to love me back to the bliss of ignorance.
cos i feel like running headfirst into traffic.

senses fail is my new drug.

observations..

i've made many observations as of late..

- observed that singapore idol is so entertaining... NOT. the choices are pretty obvious eh..

- observed that many people around this age is getting into relationships, getting out of relationships, and about to get into. not to forget the rest preparing for their "anniverasaries". oh did i mention many couple blogs?

- observed that MOZILLA FIREFOX > IE.

- observed that you need not study too hard for polytechnic papers to score well.

- observed that hard work DOES NOT equal results.

- observed that i haven't played ROC for a very long while.

- observed that singapore will have to wait a long while before getting a gold medal eh..

- observed that ramly rawks and i can't get enough of it.

- observed that short hair is sooo easy to maintain. i wonder how dan feels when its so fucking
hot these days.

- observed that i need to get my ass back to work.

- observed that i have so much rubbish to buy, i have to refer to the above observation.

- observed that its been a long time since i posted such a huge piece of update on this page.

- observed that i shouldn't drink so much or my throat will be sore. I WONDER WHY.

- observed that i've made many observations.

- observed that i'm wasting too much time here observing rubbish.

- observed that i should be outta here soon because i'm tyred..

- observed that i'm a retard. who the fuck wants to read about observations anyway?

- observed that i don't really care. do i look like i care if you want to read this page? well... uhmm... NO.

k thx bye.

mozilla firefox

mozilla firefox > *

muahaha.

brand new

you constantly make it impossible, to make conversation
we're comatosed but audible

good to know that if i ever need attention, all i have to do is die..

oop..

gah.. did almost three hours worth of oop...
please make it worth my time. wahaha.
i think i'm going insane. i haven't even studied mos and mad..
and they're right after oop... hurhur.
hope oop goes fine first..

so give me all your poisons,
and give me all your pills,
and give me all your broken hearts,
and make me ill.

hokae..

hokae... time to get rid of all those emo-wannabe posts...
and get on!

avp sucks ass. a friendly reminder to anyone out there who is still hyped up about that film: its definitely not worth your $6.50-$8.50 cooped up in a cinema watching just great CGs. go watch the grass grow or something while you download it at home.

in totally unrelated news, stretchering predators off onto that giant spacecraft thingy that hints of a hospital is LAME.

boring shyt. go do some oop.

things are looking up..

never have been one to write it down.
now i think i can,
i know i'm stronger now.
who's looking south?
not me, i'm not looking back.
done denying the truth to anyone.
cos i'm alive.

yay.

dejavu

everything seems so familiar..

naive..

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
can't believe that i'm still so naive after all these shyt.
GROW UP MOTHERFUCKER.

do you care?

do you care at all?

sick..?

coughcoughcoughcoughcoughcoughoww

every gust of wind translates a brick hurled to my face
every rain drop feels like a shard on my head
i know i'll be fine if i think it to be
consolation merely eases the mind
i don't believe in relying on others
because i have no one to rely on

tyred..

t y r e d . . .
but was a good day altogether...

i wouldn't make a sound.. i'd keep it underground..

been a long time since i went tanning, swimming. playing with honey glazed chicken.. hahah. celebrated birthday for derick. beri doing her usual blindfold thingy.. then went home with dawn..

eventful? well.. just too tired to elaborate. it was a fun day. =)

expo '86

i am waiting for something to go wrong
i am waiting for familiar resolve
i am waiting for another repeat
another diet fed by crippling defeat
and i am waiting for that sense of relief
i am waiting for you to flee the scene
as if you held in your hand, the smoking gun
and on the floor lay the one you said you loved..

restless knight

its been a helluva since i had a proper blog post.
and i don't intend to start now.

i'm bleeding to death and your hands are around my neck..

in totally unrelated news,
beer + vodka is thanks.
sorethroat due to dehydration is no thanks.
doom3 is thanks.
fishandco is thanks.
spending too much money is no thanks.
sleep is thanks.
need for more posts making sense is thanks.
feeling fucked up is no thanks.

oww..

drinkdrinkdrinkdrinkdrinkpain

transatlanticism..

the atlantic was born today, and i'll tell you how..
the clouds above opened up, and let it out..
i was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere,
when the water filled every hole..
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
making islands where no island should go..
oh no..
those people were overjoyed, they took to their boats..
i thought it less like a lake, and more like a moat..
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door,
have been silenced, forevermore..
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row,
it seems farther, then ever before..
oh no..

i need you so much closer..

oh well..

i want to take another step forward with you, but getting so far has already been a privilege for me, and i don't want to go backwards to the start, and end it all.

oh well..

whoo hoo

naruto 95-96 rawks!
downloaded ff8 works!
omg. i feel happy.
at least for now..

spoilt tagboard.

in totally unrelated news...
SPOILT TAGBOARD IS SOME THANKS.

hhaaiikkk..

i think i'm being a jerk.
i dunno.
but i don't think i mean it.
really.

thetasteofink.

is it worth it, can you even hear me?

stay with me..

whoaa.. there's something in the air tonight~
something that makes me feel alive
and i say whoaa..
what were the words that you said to me?
that made me feel so special now..


=Dtho it is but temporary.. heh.

"good" morning..

i don't fucking get it.
when someone has proven her point in an argument and made known that it is the other at fault, she has to go on and bring shyt about the past, the future, and almost everything else unrelated. how would that salvage the situation that has already happened?
quote of the day_ "(insert name here) works and pays her phone bills, you work and you don't. she has to hang the clothes, run errands for me, and what do you do? i don't want to make a comparison you know.. i don't.."
damn fucking right, you don't!

bury me..

shut your mouth and take the blame,
and paint your face with the shame..
i know, because i know..
take these eyes and bury me..
so that i can't see your face..
and when you die,
i won't cry...

sinfest!

good does NOT triumph over evil,
love does NOT conquer all,
and justice does NOT prevail!

rookieoftheyear.

the promise that he made,
left broken on the floor.
the bruise left round your heart,
left you begging for more.
thank you,
for making me worthless,
in your eyes.
in hope and desperation,
i find my only hope.

love to hate, hate to me.

i have swallowed nails
so i can never say your name
now words are heard through my eyes
through my eyes

new layout..

there it is!
haha. yeah la yeah la. thank you la huh.

test

new skin.. hmm..
might feature someone's ass here sooner or later. haha.
not done "configuring" some shyt tho..

erk.

my stomach feels queasy.
is it spelt that way?
anyway, you get the point..

=(

kewl

last night was kewl. dinner was damn nice. mr ng's cooking is good. lol.
mr ng's house is fucking nice. and he lives alone. omg.
mr melvin tan brought vodka and wine. (muaha.)
there was heineken. rofl.
didn't know dawn's orange juice got vodka. made her drink. =x
but i drank with her!
(SORRY!)
yi an is gay.
jervis seems to be drinking as much as me, i dunno why.
we played dumb games.
left his place, me dawn ric zijian share cab.
i went to ric's place.
stoned for abit then fell asleep. was around 1am.
woke up at 6am due to unknown reasons.
watched naruto 83, initial d.
talk crap to dawn again and discovered some kewl stuff. lol!
11am left ric's house. left a huge note on notepad with font size 80. rofl.
dazed around his neighbourhood and got onto some random bus of which i can't remember its number.
luckily it brought me to boonlay.
came home.

HOW EVENTFUL.

oh no

what is this..

because..

because life's like this..
and i'm so used to it..

strange...

people around me seem to be troubled...
with their life..
with their schoolwork..
with "that guy whom i wanna know more"..
with "things that make me tired and wanna cry"..
with "that girl who's cute and all"..
with "that person i like who doesn't like me"..
with their new found love..
with their whatever..

and i seem like the only one without all those shyt.
omg i seem so nonchalent.

slackkkkkk

okay la okay la... update la...

went to ric's house to slack... and discovered SOMETHING!
hor ah lian? =P
and it was kinda fun. with all the "XIAO! TING!" and the "NI ZHUO MO!". hahahaha. damn retarded. slacked from like 6+ till 10+. jamie was dying her hair. red colour.. kewlll. muaha. played some trivia game which jeric made on the irc. in the end still lose to jervis. but nice! haha!

tomorrow AGM! Annual General Meeting! i don't know if i can get in.. but well.. like that loh. ahhhh. don't talk about it la. kan chiong.

well if you wanted honesty, that's all you have to say. i never want to let you down or have you go, its better off this way..

RJC!

today was kinda kewl man. voting was going on, then couldn't go to the cs room. hmm.
but its kinda okay. went to look up mj during my three hour break. haha! rjc is like damn pathetic! the building is so old my grandmother looks young standing next to it. and when i walked in all these rj retards keep staring at me like they've never seen anyone of the likes of me before.
went to ghim moh to eat. the food was kinda okay la. and the soya bean is like 50cents for one huge glass. stuff like that are ceasing to exist. but was fun. heh.

got damn pissed in class cos of a bunch of retards. anyway not many, or none of the people in my class reads my blog. so i shan't elaborate. its dumb to recap stuff that you don't want to.

thrown to the wolves in the minds of your enemies.

you had to be there!

its time for...
YOU HAD TO BE THERE!

you remember that time when we did that together? yeah you! we had so much fun didn't we. we were doing there beside it all the time, with him too! hahahaha! it was so freaking funny. and then she came and that happened! omg! that was the ultimate!

in totally unrelated news, FOOKIE IS BLOGGING. OMG! this amazing discovery outshines even the discovery of lightbulbs by einstein!

gossip.

today was boring.
as usual.
skipped lectures.
haven't done anything today
had andersen's icecream =D
gossipped.
not exactly gossipping.
anyway. it was fun. kinda.
the funnest part of the day at least.

funeral song

i died in my dreams.
what's that supposed to mean?
got lost in the fire..
i died in my dreams.
reaching out for your hand..
my fatal desire.

gay tag.

the gay tagboard is still not working.
and i discovered i'm not the only one with a stupid shyt tagboard.
i'm bored.
supposed to do the PQS report now.
but i'm lazy.

i realise that stuffs are happening around me without me knowing. haha. right peee? and sometimes its damn stupid cos when you discover it, you question why it wasn't make known to you in the first place. and after talking so much shyt about that and insisting it will never happen again.. there it is!

so i close my eyes.. let the whole thing pass me by.. there is no time to waste, asking why..

not only this.. but there's so many others.. friends whom you think would confide in you or be there for you simply disappears.. people you've known for years.. maybe its partially my fault.. or maybe entirely.. but its just wrong to suddenly think of them as good friends and suddenly not see them for months..

so long.. and goodnight..

so sad huh. -shakes head-
anyway, who cares. none of my business huh. maybe it is. but its just damn retarded. hhaaiikkk.

in totally unrelated news.. shooting a film is not as easy as you think it is.

stupid tag..

stupid tag isn't working... at least for me..
yesterday was kinda shitty, but i shan't elaborate..
going for paintball.. kinda looking forward to it..
should be leaving soon.. goodbye.

for the last time.. take a good hard look.