hurricane

shake down, you make me break.
for goodness sake,
i think i'm on the edge,
of something new with you.
shout out, don't drown the sound.
i'll drown you out,
you'll never scream so loud,
as I want to scream with you.

standing there with your smile blinding,
your eyes from seeing,
my face as I'm dying,
to figure out a girl.
but she drifts so far away,
i'm on her coast,
so maybe I should stay?
and map around your world.


so don't say
"these currents are still killing me"
and you can't explain.
but the wind went and pulled me,
into the hurricane.

stand up, don't make a sound.
your ears might bleed.
there are sweet flourescent enemies,
that live inside of me.
the world moves faster than i knew,
not fast enough to not creep up on you,
and the space we put between.
so pull me under your weather patterns,
your cold fronts and the rain don't matter,
because the sun burns what I needed.

you don't do it on purpose,
but you make me shake.
now i count the hours till you wake.
with your babies breath,
breathe symphonies.
come on, sweet catastrophe.

well, maybe this time i can follow through.
i can feel complete,
stop paying dues.
stop the rain from falling,
keep my ocean calm,
this time i know nothings wrong.

homee

whoaa.. long time since i'm home so early. heh.
last night's steamboat was fun. talked about the past.. which was so fun.. haha. sam's and peee's very funny past... amanda falling off the bus and her first time wearing a skirt. rofl rofl. damn we should have more of these some time!
on the way home, major blackout dude! haha. amanda was like scared and all when her family didn't answer the phone. haha. all was fine tho.. duh.
today went to school late... again. haha. that's me. OOP was okay... i sorta understood something. i think. haha. then went to the support center. only to find out that "year ones get the priority" and i would have to go back the night after. gah. year ones gotta study year twos doesn't huh? anyway, DB later was kewl. the teacher was sorta slack and all. heh. guess i'm gonna like it since CSA was a bitch with that old woman, and OS was stupid cos of tan hock guan and his stupid debarment act. in case you retards out there don't know, DB (Database) = branched out from CSA (Computer Systems Architecture) in sem1 and OS (Operating Systems) in sem2.

something corporate - hurricane r0x baby. i'm addicted!

2nd day of schoooooool.

haha. 2nd day of school. overslept and missed OOP in the morning. gotta leave soon for the 2pm lesson eh..
anyway, yesterday was rather fun. took charge of 1M04, the class was rather sporty man. played some stupid games, but was kewl all in all. after which was around 7 already. went to eat... then stayed back in the clubhouse to test out some 3do camp games. the candle game is damn fun man. wargames! definitely looking forward to it. and its played during midnight. heh heh.
went to meet pee and amanda for a while. amanda like damn long never see me huh. gotta press my head and squeeze my cheeks. then proclaimed "eee so oily!", and ran away. hoho.
reached home at like 12.30am? ttiirreeddd..

later gonna go to pee's place for steamboat. soooo busy. i'm kinda enjoying it... i think. but..


a train crashed,
and everything slows down.
i was wishing i could get out of this town.
these dreams we've had,
have never made you cry,
and i am not a twinkle in your eye.
but i've got to get out of here,
cos you drive me up the wall.
i've got to get out of here,
cos i can't stand to fall..

and if i die,
see you won't be so close to me,
and i won't be the one who sticks around.
if i'm awake,
see you won't go to sleep,
i promise that i won't be the one who lets you down.

tailgates, long talks,
and your superficial friends,
shining silver fords,
that leads us to dead ends.
and i said "do you lick those salty wounds,
that you yourself condone?".
i sit, wait, and i'm all alone.
but i can't go home...
cos you're my home.

and if i die,
see you won't be so close to me,
and i won't be the one who sticks around.
if i'm awake,
see you won't go to sleep,
i promise that i won't be the one who lets you down.
no, i won't let you down.

tell me where you are tonight.
is everything alright?
do you remember what i said,
while he's sleeping in your bed.
tell me now you, smile hard.
cos i don't smile much so far.
and is he everything you need?
is he everything i couldn't be?
does he make everything match better?
bring you all the shiny weather that you want?
is he everything?
everything that i'm not?


something corporate - if i die.
so many questions.. no answers at all..

school

first day of school. got interaction games with the year ones later... don't even know what's going on man.
woke up late today again. mum supposed to fetch me to school. as usual, got screwed big time. everything is so stupid. i think i'd rather go to school myself and be like an hour late or something...

sixteen long years in... held the bullshit in..

shall blog later.. got so much crap to blog.. but i'm just lazy... gah.

saturday!

whoaaa. its saturday! two days away from school reopening!
and i just watch france got pwned by greece last night. or rather this morning. was working at VL. then after that me, lawrence, yuki and leong stayed back to drink. lawrence and i popped two tequila pops. haha. then we took funny pics with lawrence's picture phone. damn fun. reached home at like 7am..
wake up so early, cos some botak just came out from purgatory and wanted to watch movie. guess who? the legendary grand mofo! muahaha.
later gonna go to suntec city convention for work. so gay. some stupid woman got concert.. but at least after that i get to go to viamar for supper. muaha. looking forward to supper!

sooooooooooooooooo tired...

in totally unrelated news, french noobs got pwned by the greek gods. if you know what i mean.. heh.

...

fuck you! say don't need. now you want me to go all the fucking way to pasir ris.
sound so pissed for fuck? i damn happy ar! i lied to you, so did you fucking lie to me. don't want to talk to me don't call! just tell me what i am supposed to do, and after that i will have no business with you anymore. BASTARD.

level 20!

level 20 !

something corporate~

little minds let little games burn big old dreams with little flames,
and you think i don't understand?
little holes in parachutes won't leave you falling,
if they do, it's because you want to land..

something corporate rawks my world!

i wanna read good news, good news.
i wanna be innocent again.
i wanna read good news, good news.
but nothing good is happening...

went to watch euro last night with ben and cal. or should i say this morning. not bad. ten goals in total for both matches. heh.
gonna go work in the morning. again. -_- tttiiirrreeeddddddd.
gotta scram.

whoaaa

whoaaaa...
there's something in the air tonight!
something that makes me feel aliveeeeeeee~

don't ask me why i'm feeling like this. haha. kewl right.
its damn kewl to have this kinda feeling man. but no one and nothing is making me feel this way.

airportttttttt.

hurhur. just got home like 2 hours ago. now gotta go airport. cos i screwed up the dates. thought samantha was coming back like tomorrow night. wtf. this is soooooooo gay. lucky peee online. if not i also stupid stupid never go. gah.
anyway. gotta go out liao. shall change and get lost.

in totally unrelated news, i'm two wins away from level20!


once again your eyes, make it hard to say goodbye
so i'll just keep driving
where do you wanna go?
it doesn't really matter
as long as you are here with me
with me
with me

whoa
there's something in the air tonight
something that makes me feel alive and i say
whoa
what were the words that you said to me?
that made me feel so special now

once again your eyes, make it hard to ask you why
so I sit here knuckles tight
hands against the wheel
your head against the glass
and you mean so much to me
to me
to me

whoa
there's something in the air tonight
something that makes me feel alive and i say
whoa
what were the words that you said to me?
that made me feel so special now

stay with me
cigarettes and open air, hand in hand
and i said, stay with me
cos every star that i see is brighter than the last
so stay with me

calvin's house!

fookie is humping me from behind now!
and he's getting horny. gay.
anyway. damn boring. i playing teenage mutant ninja turtles! and celebrated ernest's birthday with ernest not around. kewl.
anyway.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ERNEST.
and my sister!

same birthday. huehue.

in totally unrelated news, ABSLUT VANILLA SUCKS. please don't buy. thank you very much.

home!

yyaawwnn. been boring these few days. work work work.
cal came back from aussie last night! went to newton circus to eat. haha. gonna go to wild wild wet tomorrow somemore! shuang man... heh.

looking forward to..

tonight working again. 6-2. england vs switzerland! but i bet its gonna be like damn crowded. even so, work like fuck the sales still like shit. work for what man.

go bath then go work liao... shall be early today. or at least try to. heh.

everything has fallen to pieces
earth is dying, help me jesus
we need guidance, we've been misled
young and hostile, but not stupid...

corporate leaders, politicians
kids can't vote, adults elect them
laws that rule the school and workplace
signs that caution, sixteen's unsafe

we really need to see this through
we never wanted to be abused
we never gave up, its no use
if we're fucked up, you're to blame

let this train wreck burn more slowly
kids are victims in this story
drown our youth in useless warnings
teenage rules, they're fucked and boring

we really need to see this through
we never wanted to be abused
we never gave up, its no use
if we're fucked up, you're to blame

everything has fallen to pieces..
everything has fallen to pieces..
everything has fallen to pieces..
everything has fallen to...

we really need to see this through
we never wanted to be abused
we never gave up, its no use
if we're fucked up, you're to blame..!

i'm home..

i'm finally home. but i'm not sleepy... been sleeping too much on mrts.
was at the airport last night sending samantha off. she's going to japan! so kewl man. lucky girl. enjoy yourself ar!
then peee was like soooooo deprived of childhood. muahaha. we sat on the skytrain for like dunno how long. went to T1 from T2, then go back to T2, and back to T1. we sat at the front of the skytrain k! wah its like reminiscence. roflrofl.
after that went to val's place thinking that we could watch euro2004. then his tv socket got some gay problem as gay as he is. so we took a cab to ernest's place. drama man. got road block on the way and there was like 5 of us in the cab. so ernest got down and took a cab on his own. haha. but we finally caught the england vs france match anyway.
went to the coffeeshop to eat in the morning, then went to work. soooo fucking hotttt. i bet you could cook an egg just by leaving it outside. after work met mayjean to take mrt with her back. i sorta like convinced her to take down to marina bay. muahaha. then i overslept on the mrt. and here i am!

i feel soooo carefree ~
i think...

ernest's house

i'm at ernest's house now! whoo. just finished watching england vs france.
omfg. 2 minutes 2 goals. france are damn tyco bastards. england was like dominating.
emile heskey sucks man. he should like migrate to china and live in shadows so that england fans would not be able to find him anywhere. gahhhhhhhh.
haven't slept for like 2 days... went to swensens and watch Day After Tomorrow with vietlang people last night, and peee's house the night before. damn tired. shall go to nap... working at 10am somemore!
at least i get to sleep later when i've finished... =i whole week morning shifttttttttttttttttttttttt...

peee's house

i'm at peeee's house! muaha.
got me, karto, peee, lingqian, wen nan, amanda. nothing much to do here. damn boring sia.
karto watching what rockman on tv. i'm doing nothing. got work tmr somemore. boringggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

at home..

wow. i'm finally updating from home. something you don't get to see very often..
gotta leave for work in a while's time. was soooo tired. slept till like 2.30pm. from 1am? next week's gonna be busy. ernest's birthday, calvin coming back, stupid bazaar stuff to settle. and therefore. NO WORK. that means no money, but yeah, the no work part is sorta "better" i guess..
dunno what to add anymore... so... gooooodbyeeeeee

i wish it didn't hurt,
hurt like this,
to say these things to you..
i'll sacrifice one moment,
for one truth..
if we get through tomorrow,
then we'd be fine.
we'd wait for forever,
and see how close we get.

it's just another day,
one more chance,
to get this right..
i'll sacrifice forever,
please just for tonight..
if we get through tomorrow,
then we'd be fine.
we'd wait for forever,
and see how close we get.

the worst is over for now...
take a breath, now let it out..!

f i n c h p w n s y o u .

still benwang house

LEVEL 19 !

benwang house

hello.
i am at benwang's house.
and i don't feel like doing anything.
shall play warcraft the night away.
goodbye.

bite the tongue, to live with what you've done.
it's so good.
lie to myself while I lie with myself.
it's Monday and it's raining.
it's Sunday in the sun.
it's so good, but...

would it be so bad,
if you were to pretend that you were so happy?
keep it to yourself,
don't let the secret go.
if you were so willing.

but let's pray for this suicide
and all these pictures falling down around me.
i've surrounded myself with all I have inside.
would I bite my tongue,
and live with what you've done?
just continue sleeping?
selfishly consumed with everything you've wrought.
there's nothing I can do.

but let's pray for this suicide
and all these pictures falling down.
one wish full, step to the side.
and please just let me know...
are you happy?
i'll decide.
these stories are so old,
how they match your eyes.

but let's pray for this suicide
and all these pictures falling down.
one wish full, step to the side
and pick these pictures from the ground that surround me.


don't feel like blogging... but yeah. here i am...

now i understand how you felt all along...

stupid day all in all... haven't played warcraft for dunno how long... played 7 games lost 6 today. good stuff ehh...
and what irony. the only one i've won is vs some 136/11 undead. i've never beaten any good undeads... and i lost to some newbie maphacking orc. 3 games vs maphacks today... wtf. blizzard please fucking hack scan every 2 minutes or something.

going to work. goodbye.

=\

hand me downs and photographs
spread across the floor
a broken record spins in circles
she can't listen anymore
she's turned around a thousand times
she set that bridge a fire

but did you wanna listen?
you took the world with you..
so what is left,
so what is left for me?

i called you on the phone again
just the other day
it sounds to me you found your place
and everything is great...

but did you wanna listen?
you took the world with you..
so what is left,
so what is left for me?

i try
so hard to figure out
why
no explanation keeps me waiting
lets try
because i know you won't forget
i know
even if the story is over

but did you wanna listen?
you took the world with you..
so what is left for me?
so what is left for me?

what's left for me?


another day... so tired... so many things to do... and i'm not doing them right. some things... i don't even know whether i should be doing them...

pissed..

why.
can't.
you.
fuck.
off.
just.
go.
and.
die.
already.
BITCH.
whatmakesyouthinkthati'venotdoneanythingyou'vesaid.
whatmakesyouthinkiwannastayinthisplaceyoucallahome.
whatmakesyouthinkidon'twannaworkandstayout.
ificould,iwould.
idon'tneedyourconstantreminderthati'mafailureinlife.
idon'tneedyouscreamingatmefromdaytonight.
infact.
idon'tneedYOU.
FUCKOFFFUCKOFFFUCKOFF.

zzz..

this vacation's useless
these white pills aren't kind
i've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
i miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
i've given a lot of thought to the nights we used to have
the days have come and gone
our lives went by so fast
i faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
where i laid and told you, but you sweared you loved me more

do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off pretend its all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is

those notes you wrote me
i've kept them all
i've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall
with every single letter in every single word
there will be a hidden message about a boy that loves a girl

do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is

do you care if i don't know what to say?
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
that there's someone out there who feels just like me
there is

drinking is bad for health.

hoho. just came back from soccer. damn late man. this is like the first time we played till around 3pm. tireddddddd.
anyway. i went to cut my hair. =D cut hair cut hair snip snip.
last night was damn horny man... worked till like 12+... then had lotsa food left from the function earlier on. then me, chinteck, shah, khai, royson, sharae and klein sat down and eat/drink. shah made his "shah long island tea". omg. and i thought it was the normal long island tea. when i asked him what was in it, he said "you don't wanna know". hoho. but it was good stuff man.
there was a total of like 12 kinds of liqueur in that thing. the first round was just leisure drinking. then he made a second round. i went behind the bar and saw his "recipe". he added whiskey, brandy, gin, rum, vodka, chivas and some other i couldn't catch. practically everything la.
only the five guys there were drinking tho. me, khai, shah and klein. so we played "cai quan". dunno whats that in english la. but we were playing and drinking like hell. then came the third round. omg by then everyone was getting blur already. royson the first one, ran out to vomit. rofl. i'm not that bad huh. =P
after that, another round of beer. until all those drinking cannot tahan already. all take cab home. that was like 3am in the morning. muaha.
couldn't sleep man... head was uber heavy. felt like vomitting also. but heng nothing happened. even woke up at 7+ to play soccer. on the way still feeling like shit. gah.
oh yeah! and thanks man mayjean. borrowed finch, boxcar, blink and something corporate. as well as her player! have fun in kelantan! heh. then i won't be so bored also. hoho.
hokae. thats about it. time for more wc3. hehe.

hhaaiikkk... i'm le sad...

because i need you more than you need me
because i want you more, i know

because we moved too fucking fast
i think i really had to wish to make this last, i know

i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would

because i cared way more
because i really felt that you felt so much more, i know

i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you could